Loop no. 2 (All-Fours)
2025
Merde Project work-in-progress showing at Joe Goode Annex © 2025 Cauveri Suresh
All-Fours is a dance that is a preparation for its end. In it, I embody a character drawn from two mythological figures – Kali, the Hindu goddess of time, destruction, and transformation, and Echidna, the ancient Greek “mother of monsters.” Through this character, I confront questions about the apocalyptic nature of the time in which we are living and confront a monstrousness I find within myself. In this dance, I enact three prayers. And I ask what monstrousness offers for individual and collective survival under increasingly unsurvivable conditions.
Performance Dates:
August 8th and 9th 8pm
Joe Goode Annex
401 Alabama St, San Francisco CA 94110
This project received support from and was co-produced by Merde Project.
Photos by Hillary Goidell 2025Video by Natalia Perez
This dance is a preparation for its end.
This dance is called All-Fours.
I filled my lungs with hate and rage
and cried tears that seared my cheeks
I ripped out my throat and filled it with snakes
I prayed
Suklambaradaram visnum
Sasivarnam caturbhujam
Prasannavadanam dhyayet sarvavighnopasantaye
Agajanana padmarkam gajananamaharnisam
Anekadam tam bhaktanam ekadantampupasmahe
Vagarthaviva samprktau vagarthapratipattye
Agatah pitarau vande parvatiparamesvarau
Gururbrahma gururvisnuh gururdevo mahesvarah
Gururssaskat parabrahma
Tasmai sri gurave namaha
and it came out as a hiss.
So I hissed.
I filled my lungs with hatred and rage.
I ripped open my chest
and clawed out my heart—
I cut my feet over rocks
and filled the wounds with soil
night after night until
My eyes burned red
my crying ended
my hair, a deepest blue.
My fingers, curved and hardened to claws
reached into branches.
I filled my lungs with hatred and rage
there was nothing left.
I hissed my prayers
Om tatsaviturvarenyam bhargodevasya dhimahi dhiyo yo nah pracodayat
Om shantih shantih shantih
and the air filled with screams.