Loop no. 2 (All-Fours)

2025
Joe Goode Annex (San Francisco, CA)
Sound by Matt Robidoux


Merde Project work-in-progress showing at Joe Goode Annex © 2025 Cauveri Suresh

All-Fours is a dance that is a preparation for its end. In it, I embody a character drawn from two mythological figures – Kali, the Hindu goddess of time, destruction, and transformation, and Echidna, the ancient Greek “mother of monsters.” Through this character, I confront questions about the apocalyptic nature of the time in which we are living and confront a monstrousness I find within myself. In this dance, I enact three prayers. And I ask what monstrousness offers for individual and collective survival under increasingly unsurvivable conditions.

Performance Dates:
August 8th and 9th 8pm
Joe Goode Annex 
401 Alabama St, San Francisco CA 94110

This project received support from and was co-produced by Merde Project.

Photos by Hillary Goidell 2025
Video by Natalia Perez


This dance is a preparation for its end. 
This dance is called All-Fours. 
I filled my lungs with hate and rage
and cried tears that seared my cheeks


I ripped out my throat and filled it with snakes 

I prayed 

Suklambaradaram visnum
Sasivarnam caturbhujam
Prasannavadanam dhyayet sarvavighnopasantaye
Agajanana padmarkam gajananamaharnisam
Anekadam tam bhaktanam ekadantampupasmahe
Vagarthaviva samprktau vagarthapratipattye
Agatah pitarau vande parvatiparamesvarau
Gururbrahma gururvisnuh gururdevo mahesvarah
Gururssaskat parabrahma 
Tasmai sri gurave namaha 

and it came out as a hiss.

So I hissed.

I filled my lungs with hatred and rage. 

I ripped open my chest 
and clawed out my heart—


I cut my feet over rocks 
and filled the wounds with soil 
night after night until

My eyes burned red 
my crying ended
my hair, a deepest blue.

My fingers, curved and hardened to claws
reached into branches. 


I filled my lungs with hatred and rage
there was nothing left.
I hissed my prayers 

Om tatsaviturvarenyam bhargodevasya dhimahi dhiyo yo nah pracodayat
Om shantih shantih shantih

and the air filled with screams.
© 2025 Cauveri Suresh